Saturday, April 30
i want
old central by
avon from
the cut e.p.
Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.
4:18 AM
the lady herself. who's leaving to do menial work in some theme park in new jersey.
Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.
2:48 AM
the great providers of deb's gifts. muaha.
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and butterflies.
2:47 AM
Swirls and whirls
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2:40 AM
upon cotton budding off the last remnants of my eye makeup, i think of how deb & jiaying have both seen me through my 'look-snootily-upwards' phase because hard contacts are a bitch to wear and my 'knock-out-punched-out' eye eyeliner look, because i thought i needed to cosmetically enlarge my little eyes..
lol.
(and i also realise that i have a mole on the left side of my face which seems to be growing quite a bit.)
anyway,
it was nice meeting up, finally. finally. :] there's an element to us when we're all there together. i love them! im proud of how we're grown into ourselves and into each other. and if there's anything i want for them, its happiness & filiae-melioris-aevi-ness. i love tapas too! tapas tree has enticing drinks. its really such a delightful place. im going to go back there because i liked jy's cocktail and because i love sharing places i love and like with zh too. im thinking, warm churros with hot chocolate. :D
im a blessed girl. i have good friends who are genuine and dependable. for instance i depend more on deb, perhaps more than ansen thinks we're 'dependable' :] who are real people, and who care. and who are good. i have a loving dad & mom and an adoring sister. and a brother who lets me use his gatsby hairspray when i run out of mine. and friends to hang out with and chill. and the best bf, so best that i cant stop talking about. i really think i talk too much abt him. to liwern, to deb, to jiaying, to ym, to lynn, to my dad and mom, to my sister, to my brother too, when he's in the mood.
oh, and by the way, robinson's service is fan.tas.tic. there's no other reason why i spent more than $150 on kitchenware & home decor. they really are the best. i love robinsons.
ok. enough of feeling lucky. maybe its just friday night. its back to studying for now. gah.
Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.
1:33 AM
Thursday, April 28
just like how savoy & nice was annexed from piedmont & ceded to france, i am annexing the last 3 chapters of my syllabus & ceding it to neverneverland. good strategy, no? no.
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and butterflies.
12:34 AM
Wednesday, April 27
'asked if he ever feels burnt out or worries about the future, he says: "my greatest joy is taking care of her, i don't worry about tomorrow. we'll just take everything in our stride."'
this comes from today's life section. the sprightly mr robert yeo, 84, taking care of his bedridden wife. life has many stories. whats poignant about this one, is that it has touched mine. i remember jy, deb & i went down for community service, and ended up at a dusty little 1-room flat. yes, the mr robert yeo was indeed sprightly, and his wife was truly the sweetest thing ever. i would describe her as a clear shiny voice that radiates through her songs and him as a perpetual smile of adoration.
i asked deb once whether she remembered them. she did; we all do. its them both leaving an indelible mark on us, young as we were. i think we're all glad they're ok.
Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.
3:24 PM
the guy in front of me today in the exam hall had a tiger t-shirt. the tiger growled and flirted with me alluringly throughout the 2 hours. remarkably life-like.
im so proud that zh got recommended to be a writing assistant for usp. balls, im actually dating brainy matter :]
update: becky also got recommended! whoa. TWO brainiacs. im one proud mama.
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12:48 PM
Tuesday, April 26
my oc download, is like a mathafarking snail. it downloads like 30 bytes and then queues for at least another hour. before it downloads another 30 bytes. im loathe to start another download, because this one's already at like 99.8%. but its this crucial 0.2% which will make the entire video run smooth. gaah.
Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.
4:30 PM
visions of colonial produce. coolies, tea, gambier and pepper and clouding me over. i imagine that tomorrow, i must be adept enough to switch over to european monarchies and assasinations. 2 consecutive history papers are lethal
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and butterflies.
2:57 PM
its zh's birthday, & im the meanest gf in the world. because i have just hastily made him a card (yes, this card) in a span of one very panicky hour. it wasn't that i'd forgotten - i just hadn't realised that 26th april would come so quickly on the heels of monday night! i got all stressed because as liwern kindly reminded me, i would have given him hell if it was in the reverse. thank god ive successfully convinced zh to pretend his birthday falls on the 5th of may so that i have time to shop for his present. and heyhey! we can have the same birthday! here's wishing him happiness. in advance for the 5th, of course. :]
Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.
2:07 AM
Monday, April 25
yesterday we went to the very gay and happy gay bar called happy :] it is very nice and pretty and with nice tattooed bartenders. alternativating at its best. dinner was goodygood too :] i love italian waiters. and their sexy 'would-you-like-more-bread' accent!
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5:26 PM
Sunday, April 24
every weekend when i come back home, i have to rope in and do my doggywalking chores. and for the millionth time, i wish scott had a nice female golden retriever to mate with. how nice that would be? on an economic faculty, we can recoup our investment by getting some little puppies which we can sell off. and to add to the adorable factor, me & zh can adopt a little golden retriever puppy as our own! and from scott's point of view, his horniness can finally go a long way!
i now launch the get-scott-a-great-mate campaign! this long vacation, im going to sniff out the perfect partner for him..
Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.
12:15 AM
Saturday, April 23
what a crappy 2 days. i accidentally turned my laundry pink in the wash and things got progressively worse from there. i lost my temper only about a dozen times, and then when i thought i would go 'oc off' my bad mood, i realised i dont have episode 5 yet and my computer connection went bust on me. i couldnt connect to nusnet for the entire day. in the morning, my eyeliner stick broke off and i couldnt find the remains to line my eye with. and then i sat for a lousy paper, and proceeded on to lose my transponder. i hope my period will come soon, then at least i can blame all this crap on hormones. sheesh. and the angst will be washed away in a crimson tide.
oh. update: i didnt bring back my laptop charger either. great.
Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.
6:56 PM
Friday, April 22
i fell asleep on his chest and to my utter utter utter mortification, we woke up to find his nipple swathed in saliva. i guess i was too tired. tired people drool you know..
Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.
11:42 AM
Thursday, April 21
will you look at that! exam stress packs and zh's instant noodle affair and my penchant for cereal & cookies have culiminated in an entire shelf stuffed silly with food..
Swirls and whirls
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12:58 PM
Wednesday, April 20
do any of you go to the commonwealth hawker centre down at queenstown? the one with the shanghai guo tie? if you do, then you'd notice the longstanding hatred between the guo tie woman & the drink stall lady. the atmosphere between the 2 matriarchs can seriously cut glass. ok, maybe matriarchs is pushing it a little too far. the guo tie lady is really really aunty and the poor little old lady is reputed to be meanie in the past. zh said she used to be so mean that he would rather buy drinks from downstairs than patronize her. but now she's reduced to a pitiful slice of a figure, selling barley and a few dismal cans of drinks stacked woefully in dirty plastic crates. i asked for teh ping but the little lady does not make teh or coffee, much less teh ping. her business is so terrible that she has resorted to making colorful handmade posters of random folks proclaiming that the barley 'die die must try'. (it isnt)
zh & i ate 10 fried, 10 steamed, 1 bowl of hot-and-sour soup, a roll of popiah, another bowl of pig innerts soup and rounded it up nicely with tapioca-in-coconut. i liked the coconut. it reminds me of the most amazing chendol i had somewhere in malaysia. must ask dad where it is though :) then maybe i can bug zh to bring me up! hee oh and zh is shy about airing his armpits.
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9:32 PM
ive been typing out all my notes because they're simply too content heavy to etch out on paper with pen. what if my hands freeze up tomorrow because i cant write without a laptop? argh
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4:02 PM
after some strawberry romanoff & ice mocha vanilla, me & liwern both
should have enough sugar to last us through another study night. lol which seems imperative at this point in time since we just whiled away the night watching movie & drinking coffee when i have a paper tomorrow, and hers the day after tomorrow - and we both have papers the day after the day after tomorrow!
Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.
2:32 AM
happiness is being with your best friend
zh is my best friend :)
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2:22 AM
Tuesday, April 19
not one but two
casinos?
lets see. there would be a sudden flurry of waitresses who would make the great upward progression to casino bunny girl. from $5 an hour at sakae sushi to a glitzy job that sticks a perky fur ball on your behind and probably pays 4 times as much. not forgetting the eyeboggling amount of tips intoxicated gamblers would potentially thrust into your hands. my only regret is that by the time these integrated casinos come into being, i would probably be too old to want to be a bunny girl :]
on a more socialistic note, the rich are just going to get richer, the poor are just going to lose their lifesavings, and the ones in the middle will just remain ambivalent to it all.
they want to remake singapore into something glitzy and exciting and i quote, 'a blockbuster attraction'. but why do i wish our little island would just settle into her own skin? dont they know about blockbusters? people watch them once. and only in the summer. and they dont even bother to buy the dvd afterwards.
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and butterflies.
4:26 PM
Monday, April 18
a 'B' for my extremely scintillatingly arduous european history essay. and an 'A' for my plain-regurgitation-with-minimal-effort chinese business one.
it doesnt pay to challenge yourself!
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and butterflies.
4:36 PM
Saturday, April 16
lets revert to the 1600s! and call jakarta 'batavia'! doesn't it sound so much nicer this way? :] i thought it was hidden in some exotic isle of the world until i was informed its in indonesia. gah.
Swirls and whirls
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1:06 PM
Friday, April 15
the best compliment.
comes from the oddest places. when the most unlikely person told me that im smarter than i look, and that it was meant to be a compliment.
its really nice. for a change! no one tells me im smart, except perhaps my dad lol
and zh too.(can you tell that zh just coerced me into adding this?)
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7:36 PM
canadian postage 1898 - 'we hold a vaster empire than has been'
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2:01 PM
imperialism.
'a peaceful crusade, bringing millions into the Empire of civilisation, helping to raise them bit by bit to our level.'
are we still relunctant advocates of the western notion of superiority? why else are we still bitching (jealously, mind you) abt SPGs, and sniffing haughtily at their 'awesome' ways, and yet simultaneously labelling certain places 'expat places' and hobbies 'expensive expat pastimes' - things that are reserved for them, and not for us?
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1:50 PM
many people have expressed such sympathy for my failure, lol and im glad to know the record stands at 14 tries :] and im a long way from that. my legs are hurting now, because i was so nervous that whenever i clutched down, my legs would visibly tremble. driving works me out! tones the thighs and arms - even more so, if there werent power steering haha
studying now at yih with liwern.
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and butterflies.
12:11 AM
Thursday, April 14
wheeeeee! mugging queens!!
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and butterflies.
11:56 PM
sigh. for the 3rd time, i failed driving. im on my way to becoming one of those belonging to the hallowed hall of famous people who take 7 tries to pass. and even so, i heard its because she was just too pitiful..
and i just lost some measure of
faith .
Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.
3:26 PM
Wednesday, April 13
oh what an exciting life i lead.
yesterday night i waited 45 minutes for lynn and her trusty ol phantom to appear on the horizon of the road. but all the phantoms that came by all had old men seated on it and whom were all invariably leery. did i mention the lorry drivers too? then at long last, she called me to say she overslept! whee, lynn! :D but she atoned nice and well and sent me to bbdc today. haha. thanks lynn. thankyou thankyou thankyou. on the way, she mentioned that she might die soon. and i hope you dont. but in a rather morbid twist of fate, we reached bbdc only to see a body on the road and swarms of traffic policemen around - both because there was a riding test going on and because of the accident. then later on, at teck whye, my driving instructor told me of the 'exciting fatal accident' that happened there. a biker fell off the bike, and a bus ran over his head with a, i quote, 'kreeee-arrck sound'. yepyep. be careful lynn.
i thought my exciting life would end soon so that i could get down to doing some work. but i spent the afternoon - !? - tanning with liwern! instead of nicely mugging like our sensible counterparts, we were happily contemplating life, again, in the thirsty cools of the pool. how much of life do we have to talk about anyway? well, you see, we start talking about
other people's lives. so we can really go on and on..and on..
after tanning, i thought this is it! i can get down to studying. then i went to bathe, and i saw a china girl pee with the door open. i think she thinks she's still in the people's republic of china with their noctoriously doorless toilets. sigh. is she afraid of closing the doors? because i think she looks rather scary. with her long hair teasingly peeping from the cubicle walls for a good 5 minutes. and its not the first time i've seen this freaky vision. she brings to mind sadako. but sadako isnt fat - this china girl is.
ok. my exciting life seems to continue all the way till tomorrow. liwern just came and informed me that we're going for free hair coloring. maybe we can study while getting our hair done - ?? - haha
Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.
3:53 PM
Tuesday, April 12
lol i dont just talk about him on my blog!
thankyou girls for bringing d2 out from the dungeons of silence. now its a beautifully tempestuous dark corridor that heralds such enchantresses.
Swirls and whirls
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6:54 PM
law is so full of made-up terms! like 'disabilitate' as in 'protect the minor and not disabilitate him' - hurhur. what strange variants of the english word.
zh's mom is one up against me. she gets to take him to the italian restaurant because she pays and has more money and is his mom. while if he takes me, he pays, i eat, and im just the gf. whats the score? i forgot.
zh: im not being anal. women just like to compete. but i love you, so remember that.
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1:08 PM
progress. is rather slow.. getting a little panicky.. uh-oh.
last friday's ballet under the stars was great :) zh and i have a great affinity for grass, straw mats and food. if i marry him, im bringing that picnic mat to the solemnization ceremony! *now, lets not scare him off, shall we?* gulp.
the sdt is really more adept at contemporary ballet. where they reinterpret electronic music/drums and bass/folksy tunes with the dexterity of their soft-shoed feet. when they attempt classical ballets, then the lack of standard is painfully visible. and they do look a wee bit odd with the oversized tutus. maybe they should manufactured tutus more suited to the petite asian body. lol.
i miss ballet..
what should i get him for his birthday?
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1:00 AM
Monday, April 11
he's still the same ol weirdly entertaining deal. what makes him so magnetic? him of the pile of bones that prop up tendons of fair skin. him of the bad bad teeth and glassy eyes. nothing's ever right when he pops out. because when when he does, i first inhale with such abandon and then induce myself into stress-related seizures.
Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.
3:57 AM
Can you not sense . . . that the earth is again trembling in Europe? Do you not feel - how shall I put it? The wind of revolution in the air?
- Alexis de Tocqueville, 1848
revision time.
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12:33 AM
Sunday, April 10
play the guitar for me. and i'll tip the hat.
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2:06 PM
Saturday, April 9
Your dating personality profileStylish :: You do not lack for fashion sense. Style matters. You wouldn't want to be seen with someone who doesn't care about his appearance.
Big-Hearted :: You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love.
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Your Top Ten Traits1. Stylish2. Big-Hearted3. Liberal4. Adventurous
5. Sensual
6. Shy
7. Practical
8. Funny
9. Romantic
10. Wealthy/Ambitious
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Practical :: You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living.
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Your Top Ten Match Traits1. Conservative2. Practical3. Shy4. Romantic
5. Big-Hearted
6. Religious
7. Traditional
8. Funny
9. Stylish
10. Athletic
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well, for the record, i like my men funny too..
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3:11 PM
Thursday, April 7
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1:01 PM
speedily swirling into a train wreck vortex. i know my stats will be sacrificed this semester. just let it not be a C that might possibly obliterate a shot at a good cap!
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11:57 AM
Wednesday, April 6
amazing shit; my alarm clocked up again. my adrenalin is still running. i woke at 0957 when i had presentations at 10! i didnt even have time to iron
anything; i threw on jeans and randomly tied my hair and rubbishedly went to brush my teeth and i was off for class. and i still managed my part magnificently. even though i must have looked a little worse for the wear. *pleased as punch* thankyougod!
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11:07 AM
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2:24 AM
Tuesday, April 5
yesterday, ym asked me whether hall feels abit lonely these days. and truth is, somehow im not. does that make me the most boring person alive? im happy with just one boyfriend, just one family, and just a select few girlfriends. the excitement of clubbing - what excitement? i'll rather be drinking and drunkedly buffering my friends nonsensities then to be drunk and making out with a strangers nose or something. either im aging far too prematurely for my age, or i really am the best joykill in the world. i look around me, and i envy people for their interesting messy lives. so many people flitting in and out, so many hours spent contemplating the irrationalities of life.. and here i am, looking forward to the next time i get to spend a rainy afternoon with zh at siglap starbucks.
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10:05 PM
teehee. this is my wallpaper for the moment. a picture of my adorably mismatched boyfriend. although i must confess that it wasnt as amusing at that time itself. in fact you could say i was horrified. :) he's going to kill me for this. fashion atrocities. mua ha ha. go zh!
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9:42 PM
Monday, April 4
my dad wanted to go eat african food on saturday night. so we drove around for ages trying to find verdun road. then we found it. then we turned and were confronted by about 37 pairs of eyes. you have to understand that the african "restaurant" wasnt really a restaurant. it was in the middle of this dilapidated kopitiam and unfortunately relegated to the side of the kopitiam that was next to this long dark ominous alley. my daddy got a little scared. so he starts giggling cos all these african men looked cannibalistic for some reason. my dad gets very nervous and so we stop and discuss whether we're really gonna eat there. 37 pairs of huge round white eyeballs watching us intently. then we notice that theres a lack of tables. my mom squeaks out, 'do we have to share table?' *amused* dad and mom chicken out. so much for exotic african food.
Swirls and whirls
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9:21 PM
Sunday, April 3
chronicles. from the lack of respect he gives my opinion on the smu issue, to the hurt i feel at not being enough a reason to stay on nus, to the pains of having a bf who doesnt enjoy shopping, and lastly to tragedy of one that doesnt remember dates. somehow the argument has been turned on me; im the one whos irrational unfair and mean. just because i said his voice sounds like a castrated choir boy's voice. well, ok so i was mean. but now im being accused of being faithless. god give me a sign this is all worth it. sigh.
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11:31 PM
groin displays?
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11:30 PM
in full bloom
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11:18 PM
today marks 7 month. surely it warrants more than a "imtoolazytocometotown" attitude. and PLEASE, do not dream up some stupid family dinner excuse to fool me. nobody has family dinners at food courts. if its a family dinner, im sure its one you can get out of. i remember an excited promise last week to take me out to dinner to mark this month. cos 7 months "sounds nicer than 6 months". i shouldnt have remembered. because if i hadnt, then there would be no disappointment. you are full of empty promises. how ironic it is that cheryl was annoyed cos jerry couldnt get enough of her while mine just sees me when its convenient (school) or near (east). yes girls need each other to keep sane. males are just retardedly out-of-touch. sheesh!
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8:29 PM
Friday, April 1
is it naturally human to shoot others down only to make yourself feel better? i felt a strange sense of satisfaction today when the rich suave kid in my class sat down only to reveal his socks and hairy legs which meant that he was wearing pants far too short. and then i felt another bizarre jolt of sympathy when i noticed the tall statusque chick in class trying to disguise the fact that her black working pants were too waisted. because i know exactly how terribly hard it is to find hipster smarts. yes, we console ourselves everyday with the knowledge, or justification, that everyone goes through the same.
Swirls and whirls
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11:29 AM
is the long term effect of panadol insomnia? i couldnt sleep the whole night. which prompted me to wake up at 6am which is a time i am rarely up. whilst making myself some morning coffee, i thought how wonderful it will be if the kitchenette had the sort of dustbins that worked on a step-pedal-basis. then i may no longer have to worry about the kind of rotten juice that coats the cover of the bin.
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7:10 AM
