Sunday, August 29

*booms* he-llo everreeebodee

im in a good mood, everybody, so pardon me for sounding daftier than ever. (lynn, dont laugh..) unionball's finally over..haha mm i didnt win it. lol but i got miss personality. hehe which counts for so much. to me! lol i never thought i had such a yumminess to me. a yumminess that is now apparently apparent to people around me. mua ha ha. but see, now i know. so..if u come across a big green ego, thats mine.

my favourite colour now..is green you see.

aaannnd....the kicker - im moving into eusoff. tonight! wheee-

Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.

3:11 PM

Wednesday, August 25

haha. he's so adorable. so intelligent. and so right. why is it that i always fall hard and fast and without reason too? why cant i be rational? but then again, irrationality tastes life. and life's good - WHEE!

my dad's coming for unionball. seriously, im not really asking anyone to go. cos im embarrassed and frankly how on earth do i justify cajoling friends to pay 50bucks just to sit there and watch me catwalk and answer questions.. :P

Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.

9:03 AM

Saturday, August 21

today's mom's birthday. we went to eat at lingzhi vegetarian again. hehe food's nothing to shout about. what's worth shouting about is that i went wakeboarding today! and managed to stand! and yell. and fall. with my mouth still open. after several litres of salt water, a few hours of fantastic fun, i went home warm and snug to my family. who says you need a boyfriend to enjoy saturdays?

Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.

10:23 PM

Friday, August 20

met a guy :) who's tall and has gorgeous slitty eyes. and makes my heart race that little bit more. and that is worth blogging it down for posterity :)

Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.

11:28 PM

Thursday, August 19

yay posting from my brand new laptop! haha..

Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.

6:16 PM

Monday, August 16

finally im back on track!

im wearing proper school gear to school. like tshirt n jeans.
and im going for lectures. (well, ok, makeup lectures..)
my ivle is finally UP. so i can finally print my notes like a good girl.
i even tried to collect my laptop. but the lady said to come back tomorrow.
i even fulfilled pageant things, by going for photoshoot this morning.
i went for pru interviews. and got in. haha.
ive got my day planned for tomorrow.
videoshoot, lecture, og dinner tomorrow.
i even have files, pens, pencils, eraser, pencilcase, files, notebook and the works.
i balloted for the tutorial slots i want.
and managed to make them unclash. and still join ben in marketing tutorial C24.
i happened to meet the wakeboarding guy-in-charge.
and im going to pay up on wednesday for my introductory course.

..AND i even managed to get back home early enough to have a proper dinner.

things are looking good!

Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.

7:32 PM

Sunday, August 15

(last night)

you know those jelly drinks that come in these squeezable packs with the screwcap? yeah well i saw this one right smack in the middle of the fridge. tried searching for the label to see what drink it was, but couldnt really find one, so heck, just open and drink. so i thought it was really sweet but after dieting for so many days, i probaby craved sugar. so drank it all up.

(next morning)

mom: WHO DRANK MY DRINK!?!??!?!?!? is u natalie????
nat: no! why u always blame me!
amanda: (wakes up) mee....
mom: "ARE U CRAZY!! THAT ONE IS NOT ANY DRINK!! ITS MEDICINE!! AND DAMN EXPENSIVE

so i went back to sleep. and then when i finally woke up, i asked my mom what silly medicine came in such delicious looking packs. so apparently, its for wound healing. (i slept SOOO well..!) and each time we're supposed to take only 30 ml. whooooops. hehe then my dad comes out of the toilet and asks what the problem is. and my mom tells me in this suuper exasperated tone. then my dad's like, "OH! thats why the drink tasted so funny!!!"

hahahahahaa. he drank also! before ME! thats why the drink was in the MIDDLE OF THE FRIDGE!

so my mom scolds him some more.

(few hours later)

my dad suddenly wonders why HE found the drink in the middle of the fridge too. turns out my brother drank it too...BEFORE HIM. aiyoo..

lol.

and by the way, the word fridge is damn hard to type? i always type it as drifge.

Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.

9:46 PM

felix makes me feel bad about the pageant thing all over again. he said my outfit didnt match all the others, cos mine was revealing. and the way he said the guys all whistled when i came out sounded like he was insinuating that im just basing myself on the sex factor. its not like i picked the outfit.

Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.

1:30 AM

Saturday, August 14

oh i got into the finals. haha. yep going for sailing camp :) becky doesnt know it yet, but im gonna be joining her! hahahaha...give her a surprise tomorrow :D unless she surfs onto my blog tomorrow morning. (unlikely..)

night!

Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.

2:30 AM

Wednesday, August 11

todaay..im 43-POINT-FIVE kg. ya. thats POINT FIVE more than yesterday and the day before that and the day before that as well. hm. haha outfit-fitting tonight. i will really really really look like a bachang. ben asked me how a bachang top is supposed to look like - green and poofy? well no, actually it just is brown, and really tight and constricting and has these 2 strings which ure supposed to tie together and hence squishing the boobs even more. so. ya. bachang.

more about school. i was initiated into the workings of the arts canteen yesterday - heaven & hell and all that rubbish. happening/ not happening/ smokers/ nonsmokers/ what to eat/ what not to eat/ when to go/ etc etc. the arts canteen is a very check-people-out-place. i havent decided whether i like it? haha. and then erm this sounds very anticlimax, but i missed my first lecture of my entire entire tertiary education. because i had to do the jamandhop thing. and yeah. so haha im still as lost as ever, cos the dean man still hasnt gotten me into the modules..(so bloody inefficient!?) so my modules arent reflected on ivle, and so i cant print out my notes, and neither can i buy my textbooks..

Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.

10:46 AM

Tuesday, August 10

wa. school will see the cessation of blogging sooner or later. haha. school's fun! so many people. so big. so wow. aiyo.

Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.

10:50 PM

shopping today with jiaying. hehe and after rounds and rounds of lipstick-trying, we finally settled on ONE lipstick for her, and none for me, even though we must have scattered 50 cases of it over the counters. talk about testing patiences. we got our makeup. and clothes and shoes. but still not satisfied. i predict 3 more rounds for jiaying, and myself..another 2 la. im not as hiong as she. haha. so we settled at pabulum at atrium for singapore idol on the not-so-mega-but-pretty-flat screen in front of us. with caeser salad and chicken pizza slowly transversing the space between plate and mouths. its such a funny show! hehe and we spotted joey too! then felix came to pick me up which was so terribly nice, and even jy remarked that he would never do that in the past. lol.

Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.

12:18 AM

Monday, August 9

hm its national day. i dont feel any more or less patriotic than the day before. my flag flaps on the gates outside my house. and we had a gathering at our place just now till late. and my mom even told her friends to wear red-n-white. but it was essential a meetup. nothing to do with celebrating our nation's independence. nothing to do with revelling in the knowledge we're singaporeans. haha - the only thing worth remembering is that my sister peered at the papers today and pointed out lee hsien loong and announced she didnt like him. at which i told her she has to, cos he's going to be our next prime minister! and she was like ohno!

Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.

12:47 AM

Sunday, August 8

thumbs up for moloko cafe.bar at gallery hotel! we were intending to check out coccolatte next door, but then we found issues with the hard plasticky vinyl seatings. so we went off. and then lured into moloko by promises of "drinks on the house". *whoops* whoopity-whee! we were all damn shag for some reason or other so we just sat and bummed and drank and talked and talked and talked alot. talked about our relationships..talked about how we're all single (finally) at the same time now.. deb and i cleared up the whole mark thing. and i was gratified to find out that she was willing to be open about him, but i took things the wrong way. and she said she thought he wasnt good enough for me, and i guess its affirmations like these that strengthen our relationships. so me deb and jiaying were talking and talking so much that even the self-professed old cows from the other table could buy their way into our conversation. leaving the bottle of beer untouched. on our table. carlsberg - jiaying dont like! lol it was really really really really a steal for us. we paid a total of like less than 30 bucks. and we had SOO MUCH to drink. we actually got high. and we havent been for a loong time. deb even got - can u believe it - drunk! haha! revenge for me! now whenever she relates my puking story, i can combat it with HERS. lol. the gay bartender whipped up some fancy potent shit for us. and yes. there's no scrimping on alcohol here man. his name is alex. and he's merry-gay as well as crooked-gay. and he's so funny! yep it was a good night out :) check out the pics! its a kooky place..i think..very nice and off. and appeals very much to our bangkok sensibilities. lol..

Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.

12:18 PM

Friday, August 6

haha. what a week!

re-matriculation on tuesday. so now i have a really nice matric card for bizad! :) gone is the greyish pallour of amanda on the previous one. yep so i settled all my modules and all with the asst dean so i totally dont have to go through cors at all. which is good news! very very good news! haha bidding is a hassle i would gladly do away with!

wednesday was photoshoot. and i felt ugly. cos they made us go to the studio makeup-less and its been how many years since my naked face has braved society? and mm fat, like water-retaining. and i had the worst makeup ever? my eyes were so panda-eyed BLUE!!!! i tried so many many many times to get my makeup toned down. but everybody conveniently ignored me. ha. kept telling me i had such nice eyes so i need a smoky eye effect. bah. i looked like a chao ahlian who o.d-ed on blue eyeshadow. and overly glittery hot pink lipstick. aiyaccck!!!!!!! horror. i was quite depressed about it cos ya i think i will look the worst. everybody's makeup seemed so nice n natural in comparison..soo..ya... haiya. maybe nobody will recognise me. so thats the best part.

today was dressfitting at kai at heeren. mm. slutty clothing? i must lose weight, or ill look like a bachang? yepyep. definitely must lose weight. but think i hit my lowest already. at 43 kg. mmm. aiya. aiya. how?

and in between all these interesting happenings, felix ferries me to and fro from school and house since i was sick. and yeah. it was sweet. but u know. my mantra now - "boycott!" he gave me a diamond ring for my belated birthday present. it was all so sweet. mm if only it had come earlier, i would have appreciated it without the sense of detatchment that i regard everything with now..

and then suddenly mark started msging me. and im like huh. didnt we break up. but he didnt really answer the question. instead ya he did the usual "do you still love me?" thing. or "i dont quite like the idea of you pageanting.." etc etc. so i was like er....aiya i dont know. mark, he's an enigma to me? apparently i make him realllly insecure. well if im making him insecure NOW, whats going to happen when we start school and all? so i guess it was a blessing in disguise that all this is done and over before school starts proper.

so yes. tonight i went down for arts o-night. which was quite fun! haha only cos i didnt go for most of the activities, i wasnt really in the performance :( hehe but i was mrs president! so my role was just to stand and wave. so its ok. and just by smiling, i got a red ribbon for my group. haha in what way did i not contribute? :P it got really draggy and i was getting tired but then we all went for supper. and it was great great great fun. i stayed up way past my bedtime so thats why im blogging at this insane hour. i had tehping (my usual) and cheese/mushroom prata even tho i swear i ordered onion prata. hmph! we played alot of nonsense games like around the world in eighty days and all that blackmagic rubbish. haha standard campy cheesy rubbish games. but i had fun. and yeah its a good start to uni :) even tho i'll be in a different fac, but i've made so many friends and potential lunch partners :) i even got to know ben better. whom i met on korea on a tour group like eons ago. haha coincidences of coincidences, he turned out to my group councillor!

and i saw dennis at clementi too. haha. that boy needs to get out more in the daytime. he's always around at night. no wonder he's so white

Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.

4:47 AM

Monday, August 2

im back to square one - square one which consists of juvenile temporal-at-best relationships, childish (ex)-boyfriends and boorish attitudes from both sides round. i've broken up with mark. i thought we broke up on saturday night. at yanying's party, mark and i were messaging, and it seemed to me like we'd decided to take a breather at least. and he was like you deserve a better guy. and im too busy for you. you'll stray. you need a guy around you all the time. etc etc. what can i do to make it up to you. and then on sunday morning he was so idiotic and insistent about me going down to laguna to watch his tennis match. which i didnt cos i was sick. but morose this minute, cheerful the next, he excitedly asked me to go online later in the evening just so he could send me this "nice song" and play wheel of fortune on msn with me. so i was like, OKaaaayy.. hm. then he went to meet serene for dinner at which usually i would have yelled out bloody murder but i was so stoned and indifferent, i just let it be. next thing i knew it was, lets take a break. at which i was like huh, didnt we already decide that on sat night..and the next morning (now), his msn nick is "I've found my Serenity!" what a way to rub it in my face. i dont feel a loss for him, nor pangs of happy memories, because other than kl, there wasnt much to recall. it has been an exercise in brevity and futility. and i only feel misery at the fact that i've gone for a ride to nowhere, effectually being a substitute for serene. (mark liked serene just before me.)

Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.

12:15 PM

Sunday, August 1

there's a certain science in how our bodies fit so well. how his hands hold me so warmly and firmly. how he guides me so i dont stumble. how he looks out for me, and most importantly, how he really wants me to be happy.

Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.

5:54 PM

nus admin is how laggy! i got my bizad appeal turned down but they just sent me an email telling me there's a vacancy after all, and would i like to take it? WOULD I? hell yeah. my mom would be ecstatic. and i would feel like something great is finally propelling my life to somewhere..lol yep. pity i actually enjoyed arts orientation, so i think i'll just stick to it, sorta. hehe ill figure out the getting-to-know-business-people-part later.

Swirls and whirls
and butterflies.

4:33 PM